Hello SPRING BREAK con't!

Hello blog,
I'm back. So this weekend was honestly a love rollercoaster. I really needed to deeply think about EVERYTHING! I thought everything was okay and on the right track, esp. with my love life, but a lot of things from the past came back into my mind again. After I had a talk with gf, Jenella. I realized how much I missed my ex, and how I missed how things used to be. I'm not gonna lie, I still care and love him ever so much. But we're done for a reason. Our relationship was not worth it. It was too fucked up to function. I just need to learn to let go of the past, and be happy with the present. But its sooo harrrddd! I'm not going to lie I put up a front towards everyone 'cept my gf. 'Cause she knows... I know that its hard to accept everything, sometimes I think what if this, or what if that, something that could happen to mend h&m. But truth is he loves someone else, and I'm starting to fall for someone else. But its so hard to let my new boo in when my heart is occupied. But MISH, has to focus and face reality. Time to move on!!! I know I have to keep saying that, until it happens. I can't dwell with the past, because there will never be another h&m ='(. I hope these are my last tears for him. I've been reading our past few conversations since the break-up and I can finally cry it ALLL out! But at the same time I really need to fix my new relationship, I can't let the past fuck this up for me. He's a keeper, and I've never been treated so well, and yet I don't cherish it. FML! My boyfriend treats me like a queen, like a goddess. He is someone that I can marry one day, someone who will take care of me. I guess its about time that I get with someone who loves me more than I love them, rather than being with someone who I love, more than he loves me. From this point on, I can not talk about the past, but I gotta treat the present like the past. I have to put my boyfriend first, and put my all in this relationship, I don't want to lose him. So this goes to my past, I love and always will love you somewhere, but goodbye to us! Best wishes to you. I can no longer see pictures of the past, or dwell on all the memories we've had. GOODBYE! Hello, boyfriend, I'm yours. All yours. period! Anyway, that's all I have to say. Goodnighty Bloog!


Peace&Love,
Mishybaby.